Grinchness ahead

I know most people will probably be like what?! what is wrong with you?! when i say this but it's true. I seriously dislike christmas. Don't get me wrong I like seeing my family and getting together and all the fun stuff (it's what keeps me from straight up hating it). But the whole gift thing really frustrates me. I'm too old to believe in Santa (teat tear!) and I don't have any kids of my own so it's just not exciting anymore. When I was little I didnt know my parents bought the gifts but now that i do i don't want my family to get me anything. My parents help me out with school already, even though their having a bit of financial difficulty. To me that's enough but my dad gets really hurt/dissappointed when i tell him i'm all set. I hate doing that but i also hate thinking of money they dont need to spend on me. Don't get me wrong I love presents and if i get them i love them, it's just that i feel guilty. I also have like no money to spend on other people. i want to get people good things but legit I'm broke like just about every other college student out there. if it was up to me I'd skip out on the whole present/santa thing for now and just take the family dinners, snow and friends un til i had a family of my own. i know, such a grinchh. lol